video diary?

Some couple days ago I came up with an idea; video diary.  So I wanted to try something new, something that may be easier for me if I wanted to talk about a certain thing, so I would just have to record and upload. easy.

So I just wanted to just try this out. Heres a meaningless video (may make many of these in the future, u know just throw random stuff 🙂

password: iiwokeuplikethisrebbie


The New High School Life

You may have notice on the last post that my high school life is amazing, and it issss. Im so happy for that! I got to know many new people and now I have a “squad”. Some of them closer than the other, but its good. I have been excited for so long to meet new faces, just start a new friendship with people and have fun. My theory was that I could get happier, and I am! Things are getting so much better now. I just have to prevent myself from falling back on the previous position were I was feeling extremely lonely, even doe I had friends.

a picture I took today with my group (media studies)

But you know what kind of friends you need. People that can make you smile, someone you can share thoughts with and just relax, and have fun. Like, its comfortable to be yourself. Im getting there! Im wishing god the best for myself. I still have a long way to go, but Delapsus Resurgam, right?



I`ve Taken A Litte Step Forward

Hello again!

 ppss! My High School life is amazing 

To all my 8 followers (or anyone), you`re probably wondering: “what happened?” Well, nothing happened. I have been around the country. I was supposed to meet my best friend from England, but she missed the damn flight and that shit got me mad. I was angry for weeks (not at her, It wasnt her fault)


Besides losing the opportunity to meet that one thing that would change my summer, I have been crying, thinking, trying -lots of trying and of course working on myself. And, yes, I feel better now! Not much better, but better. Its something right?

In the end of summer holiday I told my dad mostly everything about my struggles in life. Why Im acting differently compared to before. Well, I didnt tell him, but I had to. I was in a middle of a serious discussion with him and I had to, or he wouldnt understand. He would think that i was just another unthankful little youth in this world, So I finally did it. Ever since that day, my family finally knew me better.

Right now Im feeling less lonely. Its really hard to open up. I still struggle a lot with my anxiety. But again, its a little better now. Sometimes theres days where I feel either very sad and lonely, sometimes panicking or just angry. My moods are varying.

But anyways, this blog isnt going to be a “Im-sad-blog” because Im not just sad. I still have a personality, and things that makes me happy. Its time to show the good things, because I want to make people smile

Hope you`ll enjoy this new journey 🙂


What have I been doing?




Its been a while, and many things have happened. Okay, not really, but it feels like that. Probably because of my stress that wont get away. You stil struggle with stress? – yes, and anexity.. and many depressive moments, but anexity is the worst one now. I’ve had that since summer last year and it got better, but then exam came in the picture, and it got worse.

I’ve recently finished my all 3 exams. First one went ok, second went shitty, and the last one was excelent. So, I wasnt sure what I felt about the result, but my dad wasnt happy, so then I started to feel bad. Greait!

But im over it now! Im not here to talk about my problems today, im going to talk about how happy I can be this summer (if that make sence) Im so happy I’ve finally reached holiday. I feel like my mind is ready to figure out myself and clear my mind. Im so excited for high school! New friends! Thats the best part, because in the last 3 years, I’ve felt so lonely.

So, what have I been doing? well, first of all exam, and then my class and I went to poland. Lots of crazy and funny things happened there. I really miss the trip, and I wish I could go back again..with my class. They are amazing people when we are together, but when I think about individuals..nope. just nope.

so yeah, poland in 5 days, then holiday came. I have been trying to go out with my mom to be be more active, so I can start with the plan i made a while ago. (I deleted the most, Im going to change something there) It has been pretty good actually. I havent started yet on the plan because when i started, my body was too lazy with no energy and I had no desire, so it was too hard. Im going to continue with going-out-with-mom-when-you-have-the-chance prosses. So, when I come from Trondheim next week, I will start.

Bilderesultat for imvu

I have also played alot of Imvu. Imvu is a virtual online chat world (platform). You can get many friends there, so I recommend it alot if u like being creative and meet new people. ( I will make a spost about this) It may look like its only for kids, but its not. At all. Its from 13+. That means that adults also plays this. There are mostly people from 15-19, so its perfect for youth.

So, thats what I have been doing. + alooooot of youtbe. specially Euina (imvu youtuber)

Stay tuned:) ❤ and thank you sooo much for beeing here. I never thought someone would actually read my blog. Its crazy even doe its only like 13 people pr post.

But thanks again!





New Start | health


I`ve been searching and searching guys and finally, now I`ve comen to a decision, or actually two suggestions.

Its is really important for me to change. If you feel like you want a fresh start and a new beginning, then go ahead. I will be documenting this with before and after picture. Please let me know if I`ts working 🙂 so..

Lets just jump right into it.


1. I am going to start with this (plan 1)

2. In may, I will stay with the same plan, but a little harder.

3. In june 15, I will start with this:  / make my own plan (Focusing on jogging and mountain)

4. After summer holiday, I will start going to the training center and do this: (maybe make a plan for myself or find a harder one, depending on my body standard)


Bilderesultat for workout


– This is a STRETCHING video, that will basically stretch your whole body. I think its important to me do that at least 3 times a week, because I am very stiff and I`ve always wanted to become more flexible.


– 30 days of YOGA will help you to become stronger and relax. This is probably the most important part for me, because my goal is to make my body feel great and strong. (If you`re done with that, go over to Revolution yoga challenge (30 days))


– I also want to build muscles. Its not that Important for me, but like, Why not? These are workouts that will give me FULL BODY WORKOUT. I also love the ideá to look fit and It would make me become more confident with my body that ever. Not that I need that, I just want to feel great. Doing both of them everyday is`nt a good idea. Each part of my body needs to heal for around 24h. Thats why I`m going to trade.


  • Rest

-Resting is very important. I am a beginner so that`s why I have to relax. If I take it too hard, that will make me less motivated for all this.

  • Food 

– If you want to lose weight and build muscles then, u need to eat healthy. Nothing will happen if you keep eating junk food, like me lol. So I need a plan for that too, because I don´t know anything about healthy food. (I will come with a plan later)

Bilderesultat for workout



– I`m going to start with this one in may (after my current plan .1)

This plan is amazing! like for real. It tells you everything you need to know an how to do it. Take your time and read all of it. Trust me, I learned a lot! .)

(need training center)


– This one is a normal exercise plan for beginner. Its easy to follow.

– I also recommend this one too (read it please, and it will help you to pull yourself together:


These are the plans I found, after 2 hours of searching. You may say “it looks too easy” Noooo. Just do it. You have to start from the bottom and then build it up. 

Next post about health (coming tonight)

  • Full plan about “plan .1”
  • Healthy food tips + my food plan 


– I hope you liked this post and I`ll see what I figure out for tonight’s post 😉




My Problems 2/2

I just moved here two years ago and the second year is going shit. Maybe that’s it? I`m not happy here + I need a friend. Maybe that’s why I`m so excited for High School, getting out of this Island I live in and get new friends. Well damn, welcome to Norway! A country full of teenagers with bad Psychal health + the country with me most one night stands btw. *claps slowly*

.. I`m not sure why I feel this way. I feel like I`m stressed without having any reasons to be stressed about. Its like over reacting my life, because I`m bored. I am soooo tired of the people around me here. When I meet new people I`m always happy and excited. (`m a very lovely girl btw.. and funny hah) I love getting new friends and I don’t have a best friend. Or I do have, but they don’t know that I don’t feel the same (this just made me feel worse lol.

That’s why I neeeed to do something about it.

I`m going to start a plan. I need good health and a fresh brain. I really need to clear my mind, because I think too much and I`m negative on myself. It’s a big problem for my daily life. I`m so tired of everything, I don’t want to do anything anymore.

I will inform you all of my plans in another post and I`m going to document this. Yeah I know. You may be thinking: “oh wow, Your making a big deal out of this” Well it is.

So. I`m going to start exercising and be healthy.

My Problems | 1/2

Again. Blogging is hard.

I do love it and everything. I have the chance to express more of myself for once and be creative. The problem is my health has gotten in the way for so long. For me to do anything I want to. I’m in a really bad mood.

Bilderesultat for stress tumblr

 I always think “okay, today I`m going to blog about that, but first have to do this”  Then it ends up with not doing “this” or “that”, because I`m a lazy person. People ask me to hang out, but I always say “I have school things to deal with” Even when I end up with not doing it. That gives me conscience!

Exam is coming and I keep thinking about it + other things that I don’t even have to think about.. yet. I`m also struggling with me myself.. You know the self-image stuff. Yeah I do have big dreams and plans. I have confidence. I`m happy with my face, body shape, personality and family, but there is something with my appearance that has been bothering me for years (4 years?) Leading to fears as a teenager. I`ll say it`s an allergy. Not dangerous, I promise.  (I’ll go deeper when Im ready)

School is the worst. Because I feel forced everyday in 6 hours.  I`m in a bad mood all the time, but yet I keep smiling to people. I get easily annoyed now. All this makes me want to just stay in a room all day while doing nothing. I don’t want to think of anything. But yet I do it; Think much, do nothing.

(I will post more tomorrow)