Again. Blogging is hard.
I do love it and everything. I have the chance to express more of myself for once and be creative. The problem is my health has gotten in the way for so long. For me to do anything I want to. I’m in a really bad mood.
I always think “okay, today I`m going to blog about that, but first have to do this” Then it ends up with not doing “this” or “that”, because I`m a lazy person. People ask me to hang out, but I always say “I have school things to deal with” Even when I end up with not doing it. That gives me conscience!
Exam is coming and I keep thinking about it + other things that I don’t even have to think about.. yet. I`m also struggling with me myself.. You know the self-image stuff. Yeah I do have big dreams and plans. I have confidence. I`m happy with my face, body shape, personality and family, but there is something with my appearance that has been bothering me for years (4 years?) Leading to fears as a teenager. I`ll say it`s an allergy. Not dangerous, I promise. (I’ll go deeper when Im ready)
School is the worst. Because I feel forced everyday in 6 hours. I`m in a bad mood all the time, but yet I keep smiling to people. I get easily annoyed now. All this makes me want to just stay in a room all day while doing nothing. I don’t want to think of anything. But yet I do it; Think much, do nothing.
(I will post more tomorrow)