Remeber: you can allways go out for a run (its a very good full body workout)
I have been doing this for 5 days, and it felt amazing, even doe it was really hard to start
Yeah, i know, i havent been posting in a while, and its basically because, Im kinda stressed and dont want to thinl about anything. I’ve been lazy this easter holiday and I just wanted to chill. So I decided to take things easy, deal with my s*t, and then I can do other things 🙂 things I love. Sooo, see ya anytime 😉
(There will be coming much more exciting posts.. stay tuned:)
I just moved here two years ago and the second year is going shit. Maybe that’s it? I`m not happy here + I need a friend. Maybe that’s why I`m so excited for High School, getting out of this Island I live in and get new friends. Well damn, welcome to Norway! A country full of teenagers with bad Psychal health + the country with me most one night stands btw. *claps slowly*
.. I`m not sure why I feel this way. I feel like I`m stressed without having any reasons to be stressed about. Its like over reacting my life, because I`m bored. I am soooo tired of the people around me here. When I meet new people I`m always happy and excited. (`m a very lovely girl btw.. and funny hah) I love getting new friends and I don’t have a best friend. Or I do have, but they don’t know that I don’t feel the same (this just made me feel worse lol.
But hold on. That’s not it. I have to deal with my sexual orientation. Because I have been unsure for 2 years now. Well shet… I have taken many tests and most of them says I`m “bisexual” or “bi-curious” And the fact that I`m not surprise feels weird … I`m so ushure about everything, jesus christ!
That’s why I neeeed to do something about it.
I`m going to start a plan. I need good health and a fresh brain. I really need to clear my mind, because I think too much and I`m negative on myself. It’s a big problem for my daily life. I`m so tired of everything, I don’t want to do anything anymore.
I will inform you all of my plans in another post and I`m going to document this. Yeah I know. You may be thinking: “oh wow, Your making a big deal out of this” Well it is.
So. I`m going to start exercising and be healthy.
Again. Blogging is hard.
I do love it and everything. I have the chance to express more of myself for once and be creative. The problem is my health has gotten in the way for so long. For me to do anything I want to. I’m in a really bad mood.
I always think “okay, today I`m going to blog about that, but first have to do this” Then it ends up with not doing “this” or “that”, because I`m a lazy person. People ask me to hang out, but I always say “I have school things to deal with” Even when I end up with not doing it. That gives me conscience!
Exam is coming and I keep thinking about it + other things that I don’t even have to think about.. yet. I`m also struggling with me myself.. You know the self-image stuff. Yeah I do have big dreams and plans. I have confidence. I`m happy with my face, body shape, personality and family, but there is something with my appearance that has been bothering me for years (4 years?) Leading to fears as a teenager. I`ll say it`s an allergy. Not dangerous, I promise. (I’ll go deeper when I feel for it, so “you” understand)
School is the worst. Because I feel forced everyday in 6 hours. I`m in a bad mood all the time, but yet I keep smiling to people. I get easily annoyed now. All this makes me want to just stay in a room all day while doing nothing. I don’t want to think of anything. But yet I do it; Think much, do nothing.
(I will post more tomorrow)